FeW MorE MonThS...
Yes, indeed you can probably guess what I'm most looking for right now... The long hols which starst at around october or november... I really am keeping my fingers crossed.
School's tsarting tomorrow. And yeah... i still didn't complete my homeworks like what i had intented to do at first palce. Call me stupid, call me dunzo, call me forgetful,... but I can't figure out the things that i had done throughout this whole week of holidays which had eaten up so much of my time that I had bloody forget to complete a whole whooping 7 chapter notes of History, Physics exercises and Chemistry homeowrk that I've been like... delaying since the begining of this semester...
I can't figure out what's wrong with me. I badly want to change and excel... But I'm often bein g pulled back. It's like... I know I can absorb the lssons IF i want. IF i am determined, i would certainly excel and be one of the top... but I'm such a friggin lazy biatch... And my determination often just burns out like a raw popcorn being put inside the oven to pop. At first, the popcorn will be eager to like pop, but after pop-ing, there's nothing left but to wait for it to be eatn... So, what's the connection? haha i'm such a crapper... Aww... @@
Enduring with challanges is indeed a part of life that cannot avoided... I know, I know. But i'm like a hiker, who has made her way to the middle of the mountain,... I cna get to the peak, IF i wanted, but since the backpack i'm carrying is getting heavier... Since I'm so worn out of having to climb up, I avoided doing so and insitead linger around the same level...
What the heck is the matter with me? There's only a few more precious moments of being a forth former in my school. WHat the hell am i doing killing time like every second that pass did not matter at all? What is worng with me? i badly need to get an answer... Life is such a complicated thing. i've come to a point in my life where I am reluctant to move on... missing the good ol' days that has pass, not taking the opportunities given to me... What the hell am i wasting? Whta the heck has happen to you, Chew Mei yng?!?!!?? WHAAAAAAT!?!?!?!?!
I figure that... i've only got a few weeks left in form 4... Next year would be my last year... I'm tired... I'm tired of bieng looked down upon, being stepped, being ridiculed like I'm such a useless freak who is unable to get to where I want... At this point of my life, i'm getting more and more ambituous, aiming high and unaffraid of failing... But WHAT'S STOPPING ME?!?!?! I can't figure... I can't try... And I'm reluctant to move on...
IF... IF i really try... tyr to make these IFs get out of my vocabulary and instead, WORK THEM OUT, i'm certain that I will get ot where I want. I guess that, by working my arse off these few final months in Form Four, sitting for the 2nd semester exam and tying to excel with it, then get a fully deserving break... That is what I should do... But even if it's the hols... WOn't I be stuck to studingy... Geez... Why am i so indicisive? WHy can't I be more mature??? being sixteen is no useif you have a mentallity of a kiddy...
I cna do it!!! It's only a few more weeks after all!! AZA AZA FIGHTING!!!!!!! =S Lord, HELP ME!! I NEED YOU DESPERATELY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
School's tsarting tomorrow. And yeah... i still didn't complete my homeworks like what i had intented to do at first palce. Call me stupid, call me dunzo, call me forgetful,... but I can't figure out the things that i had done throughout this whole week of holidays which had eaten up so much of my time that I had bloody forget to complete a whole whooping 7 chapter notes of History, Physics exercises and Chemistry homeowrk that I've been like... delaying since the begining of this semester...
I can't figure out what's wrong with me. I badly want to change and excel... But I'm often bein g pulled back. It's like... I know I can absorb the lssons IF i want. IF i am determined, i would certainly excel and be one of the top... but I'm such a friggin lazy biatch... And my determination often just burns out like a raw popcorn being put inside the oven to pop. At first, the popcorn will be eager to like pop, but after pop-ing, there's nothing left but to wait for it to be eatn... So, what's the connection? haha i'm such a crapper... Aww... @@
Enduring with challanges is indeed a part of life that cannot avoided... I know, I know. But i'm like a hiker, who has made her way to the middle of the mountain,... I cna get to the peak, IF i wanted, but since the backpack i'm carrying is getting heavier... Since I'm so worn out of having to climb up, I avoided doing so and insitead linger around the same level...
What the heck is the matter with me? There's only a few more precious moments of being a forth former in my school. WHat the hell am i doing killing time like every second that pass did not matter at all? What is worng with me? i badly need to get an answer... Life is such a complicated thing. i've come to a point in my life where I am reluctant to move on... missing the good ol' days that has pass, not taking the opportunities given to me... What the hell am i wasting? Whta the heck has happen to you, Chew Mei yng?!?!!?? WHAAAAAAT!?!?!?!?!
I figure that... i've only got a few weeks left in form 4... Next year would be my last year... I'm tired... I'm tired of bieng looked down upon, being stepped, being ridiculed like I'm such a useless freak who is unable to get to where I want... At this point of my life, i'm getting more and more ambituous, aiming high and unaffraid of failing... But WHAT'S STOPPING ME?!?!?! I can't figure... I can't try... And I'm reluctant to move on...
IF... IF i really try... tyr to make these IFs get out of my vocabulary and instead, WORK THEM OUT, i'm certain that I will get ot where I want. I guess that, by working my arse off these few final months in Form Four, sitting for the 2nd semester exam and tying to excel with it, then get a fully deserving break... That is what I should do... But even if it's the hols... WOn't I be stuck to studingy... Geez... Why am i so indicisive? WHy can't I be more mature??? being sixteen is no useif you have a mentallity of a kiddy...
I cna do it!!! It's only a few more weeks after all!! AZA AZA FIGHTING!!!!!!! =S Lord, HELP ME!! I NEED YOU DESPERATELY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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